Author Archives: s.e.

For Ashley.    I married my high school sweetheart.  He was a bad boy and I was the good catholic girl.  He drank at 13 and smoked cigarettes.  I was raised by strict parents and believed if I came home drunk … Continue reading →

I realize I let this blog crumble.  Although, I have not.  I feel strong, more confident in my future, and in turn happier.  I am still married.   My husband is still clean. Tonight, he is at his last meeting for the after-care … Continue reading →

Sometimes, I don’t even admit things to myself.  I have known we need marriage counseling but I have come up with an array of excuses.   I first thought that my husband needed to recover before we could work on us.  … Continue reading →

I am fighting cabin fever.  After two snow days, I haven’t gone beyond my driveway in almost 48 hours.  I have been alone with my two beautiful children inside a nice warm home.  It is sunny outside but bitter cold.  … Continue reading →

I may be failing at blogging more often but I really do not want to feel guilt in something I hope to be pleasurable.  And if I am being honest, it’s not just blogging I suck at.  My new years resolution … Continue reading →

So, here goes.  I started this blog so I could be honest.  And yes, I am in search of myself and happiness.  But sometimes, I still feel angry.  The burning in your chest kind of anger that only goes away … Continue reading →

I am spending much of my waking hours conscious of happiness-my happiness and my search for more.  It is intriguing to me how many messages continue to bombard me.  It’s like when you learn a new word and all of the sudden you … Continue reading →

I have never realistically made a new years resolution.  In turn, I have never kept one.  I am hoping this year could be different.  Last week, I was wallowing in self-pity, frustrated with what I cannot control.  I decided I … Continue reading →

I must share some background on why this blog came into existence.  Over the last year and some odd months, I went private and wrote a blog to my children.  I enjoyed documenting each month how my children grew.  I honestly did … Continue reading →

I am embarking on a whole new journey.  I am in search of myself.  Twenty ten was quite the year.  An amazing year.  I marveled at the joys of raising two little ones.  I adored every moment of watching them … Continue reading →